So you stayed back...

Its ok you whispered and lightly pushed me forward,

your palm on the small of my back

I started walking away and could still feel you on me,

could see your face and feel your arms

I turned around with every step i took.... asked you to come with me
sometimes a whisper ....
sometimes i yelled after you so loudly that the sound of my voice echoed in my head for weeks

I walked further away and you wouldn't move,

desperately watching your stillness i walked further away

I cling to your smell in my head, i see the shadow of your body over my life in the dusk
i can't see you anymore

i am still walking and i can hear you asking me to go on

I've bargained and pledged and provoked you
your calmness, your reassuring smile the desperation they breathed on me
too tired to carry on

have forgoten how to stand still

too scared to turn i just keep on walking

further and further away