breathe

open your eyes slowly to the day and let the light touch your senses

the years you've lived are light

full
ofcourse, full and busy
but light
not dragging you down not pushing you forward

just being there in you like an introverted aura

you've earned from them
...no no i did not mean learned i meant earned...


smile and let the light spread from your eyes to touch my senses

subtle
with a silent b
i need to learn this and i repeat it out loud several times
then I remember i'm not alone and I'm mouthing the word instead hearing it in my mind
stupid
i need to stop pronouncing u as in french its not closed its open
Don't pronounce the h at the beginning of the word

you sound vulgar

these are not my words, they are on loan
these sounds, this language has shallow young roots
easily torn out of me when the time comes to return them

(or so i wish)

*****

Half of the letters in the words have no sound
stop revealing them
hidden sounds thoughts emotions
is the language reflective of the character?

HIDE

repetition of sounds, practice the 'english mouth muscles'
u coin words, put together odd sentences

you sound mentally challenged

Can't put my finger on it (is this correct?)
The thoughts are stuck somewhere between their formation and their reproduction out loud
the translation buffer is challenged

how do you translate the memories

Need.
to.
speak.
now.
Need.
to.
explain.

I'm drowning in meaningless words

my own language is mixed with the 'rented' one

strange letters and sounds and

no meaning

Need.
NOT.
to.
speak.
now.
NO.
Need.
to.
explain.

In my head, in this mess of sounds there is no meaning left